Since selfies are all the rage these days I’m going with the flow. 🙂 A client of mine came in the other day and said that he’d read my blog. “GAAAHH” my mind said. “The one I haven’t posted on in forever??” Yup. This would be the one. Whoops. People read these things. Who’d a thunk? After our session, I had to ponder why I haven’t written anything here for eons. And, well….it’s because of my selfie talk. The crazy chatter that overtakes my brain when I think about writing. I wasn’t conscious of it, but it’s been paralyzing me for a long time. I think about writing and the beast in my brain starts spouting:
- What if you say something stupid?
- You don’t really have anything new to say, just give it up. Anything worth saying has been said.
- You are going to say something wrong, crazy, over the top, irresponsible….
- Nobody cares.
- Etc, etc, etc. It’s not good enough…Blah, blah, blah.
Apparently I’ve been listening to the beast. And believing it. Me. Me who points out this stuff to my clients all the time. Because I had a thought, it turned into a belief, and I went with it. What you believe, you create. I believed I had nothing to say, or that it wouldn’t be good enough, and sure enough, nothing went down on this page for over a year. I created my own reality.
I ‘what iffed’ myself to the negative rather than the positive: What if I say something stupid? rather than What if I say something that really helps another person?
I bought into my thoughts as facts rather than them being just thoughts that need to be tweaked sometimes when they run to the negative. And I came to believe my negative thoughts.
I ignored alternative evidence about my writing. (Anyone who reads my writing tells me I have a voice that needs to be heard, yet I dismiss or ignore that.)
We need to check on what we are thinking, because what we think does create our reality. You can change your thoughts. It takes work. It takes diligence. It takes being conscious of them. But if you want the life you imagine in your dreams, it’s a task worth taking on. Because when you change what you think, you change what you become. 🙂